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The Story of Big Eye!

The parents left for work. After a few minutes, Mrs. Bloom would slowly start to pull the drapes closed. Her warm smiley face was now transforming into something cold and malelavent. Her face and lips started to thin. I could … Continue reading →

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Life of an Addict…

Posted on August 31, 2012 by

POEM NOTES: Many years ago I struggled with a drinking problem that eventually lead me to the brink of suicide. But instead of killing myself I chose life. Yet, I was so destroyed as a human-being, at the bottom of … Continue reading →

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Life-Thoughts Inspired by Coldplay’s Song “Clocks”

Posted on August 28, 2012 by

When I heard “Clocks” by Coldplay, well, I just broke down. This song struck such a deep chord inside me. It spoke to my life unlike anything I have experienced. I am very thankful to this group for writing such … Continue reading →

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TRAVELING PEOPLE PART I– DISSOCIATIVE BLUES

Posted on June 30, 2011 by

( Notes on this poem….Well, I am on the road traveling with my children for a week or so, and thought that this would be the perfect time to publish a set of three poems called Traveling People. This first … Continue reading →

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INPATIENT

Posted on June 24, 2011 by

(notes on this poem: I have been in a Psychiatric Hospital twice now. Each time I spent 30 days. Both times I came into the hospital suicidal and very very dissociated. I was so dissociated that it was difficult for … Continue reading →

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FAR COUNTRY

Posted on June 18, 2011 by

(Notes on this poem: Sometimes when I walk into Walmart (anyplace really) I will look around at all the people and I wonder who they are… I will stand there and wonder about their lives. Then I will slowly start … Continue reading →

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20+ THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT JONATHAN ALTER

Posted on June 17, 2011 by

1. I love my wife (even though we are separated and in couples therapy) I love her and always will. Angela does not believe I love her, and for me this is difficult. Like the rest of the world; we … Continue reading →

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…but deliver us from evil

Posted on June 15, 2011 by

Several years ago, before I was ordained, I did children’s ministry in a large church in Indiana. I am great with children! Love them! I have several young children who live inside of me and their presence makes me more … Continue reading →

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MAKING SENSE

Posted on June 13, 2011 by

And so I search for meaning A way for me (and the world) To live beyond Brokenness A body that hurts And a mind that is twisted– Fragmented– a going insane mind I search for Christ The nails The cross … Continue reading →

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AT HOME IN KANSAS

Posted on June 10, 2011 by

You see, it all began in the house in Kansas City. In that house, as a little boy, I survived by learning how to do this magic called dissociation. At age 52, I still dissociate to flee from what my … Continue reading →

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