Monthly Archives: June 2011

TRAVELING PEOPLE PART I– DISSOCIATIVE BLUES

Posted on June 30, 2011 by

( Notes on this poem….Well, I am on the road traveling with my children for a week or so, and thought that this would be the perfect time to publish a set of three poems called Traveling People. This first … Continue reading →

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INPATIENT

Posted on June 24, 2011 by

(notes on this poem: I have been in a Psychiatric Hospital twice now. Each time I spent 30 days. Both times I came into the hospital suicidal and very very dissociated. I was so dissociated that it was difficult for … Continue reading →

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FAR COUNTRY

Posted on June 18, 2011 by

(Notes on this poem: Sometimes when I walk into Walmart (anyplace really) I will look around at all the people and I wonder who they are… I will stand there and wonder about their lives. Then I will slowly start … Continue reading →

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20+ THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT JONATHAN ALTER

Posted on June 17, 2011 by

1. I love my wife (even though we are separated and in couples therapy) I love her and always will. Angela does not believe I love her, and for me this is difficult. Like the rest of the world; we … Continue reading →

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SYMPHONY

Posted on June 17, 2011 by

(notes on this poem: this is a poem of how I imagine Integration would feel like for me as a person who has Dissociative Identity Disorder. I know Integration is controversial for those of us who have alters whom we … Continue reading →

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…but deliver us from evil

Posted on June 15, 2011 by

Several years ago, before I was ordained, I did children’s ministry in a large church in Indiana. I am great with children! Love them! I have several young children who live inside of me and their presence makes me more … Continue reading →

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MAKING SENSE

Posted on June 13, 2011 by

And so I search for meaning A way for me (and the world) To live beyond Brokenness A body that hurts And a mind that is twisted– Fragmented– a going insane mind I search for Christ The nails The cross … Continue reading →

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THE LIFE OF A HERMIT

Posted on June 11, 2011 by

As I write these words I am presently living in South Carolina. I left my small-Virginia-country-church with a broken heart, but I also knew that my time there was over. God called me there to care for these people during … Continue reading →

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TURNING AWAY

Posted on June 10, 2011 by

Turning back to times of pain anguish end of the world damned-to-hell-times Always searching for meaning for some kind of truth for the very ground of our being …wondering Why? Why a dark cross? When God turns Away Leaving us … Continue reading →

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A TUMOR IN MY BRAIN

Posted on June 10, 2011 by

Not long after my son’s birth, around the age of 47, I started to get sick. I was a pastor of a small church in the Blue Ridge Mountains of Virginia where I could be hiking on the Appalachian Trail … Continue reading →

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